So it finally hit me. I am starting to get very anxious to meet our P-Nut. I don't know why, but up until now, I have been pretty calm about the birth and haven't really "yearned" to see this baby. Don't get me wrong, I can't wait to meet my son or daughter but until now, I think I just knew I had such a long time to wait that I didn't let myself get too excited. Or maybe because there is also sheer terror in the fact that I am about to become a mother, I know nothing about being a mother, but yet I am expected to know everything about it on the birth date. Maybe my subconscious was giving me a break from those realizations.
I think my increased excitement and anticipation is because there are a lot of babies being born around me. Kelsey had Faye baby and my cousin Amy is set to be induced next week. Or maybe because we are starting to make a solid plan on what to do at work when I go on maternity leave - there is a lot to organize when you are the only person in the entire agency that knows how to do your job.
We were driving home last week and Ryan said "About 2.5 months now." Simultaneously we responded "wow!" I have been very lucky that this has been such an easy pregnancy and that it has flown by.
These days I feel very attached to my husband. I am trying to cherish every moment we spend together because I know it will be completely different once P-Nut arrives. He senses my anxiousness about the change and has been very good to assure me we will adapt. In fact, he has been very good about so many things. I appreciate all that he has done.
P-Nut continues to grow and I pray nightly that he/she will be fully developed and be healthy on his/her birth date. Until then, we will continue to check things off our to do list and prepare as much as we can!